Scared is actually an understatement, I was sh!tting it.
Today we started our next journey to becoming parents by attending a preparation to adopt course.
It's pretty much consumed my thoughts over the past few weeks, I didn't realise that until this lunch today when I get a sense of relief.
There really wasn't any reason to be scared or anxious yet I had built up a story in
my head about the process. I had read reports and spoke to people who had poor experiences and I let that taint my thoughts about the process.
I didn't really know what to expect or what the course was going to be like and that played on my mind. I like to know how everything works and what systems are in place to make it work smoothly (I've been told to suspend this as lots goes on in the background).
I was worried that I'd say something inappropriate and screw
things up for us.
I was worried that I wouldn't fit in with the group.
I was worried that I wouldn't want to carry on with the process once we got started.
I was worried that they wouldn't think we were good enough.
I was worried about rejection before there was any chance of even starting.
I wasn't alone, chanting with the group we all had the same concerns.
I now feel so much better and many of my concerns were alleviated. However, the
fact that I have been worried about it has had a major affect on my waist line.
I've written before about that fact that I tend to over eat when I feel stressed or sad. Over the past 4 weeks I've felt I had little control over the foods that I ate. I'm lucky in the fact that most of the food we prepare at home is organic and 'healthy' but when we were out I would take the p!ss a little.
I also encouraged us to eat out a little more often, so I could eat a little
more crap to fuel my comfort food needs (even though there are plenty of 'comfort' foods in our clean cookbooks).
I put weight / waist on really easily when I don't control what I'm doing and had let my own systems slip while I was anxious about starting the adoption process.
It's these systems and our support that help our members achieve so much. We also understand where people are coming from.
Fran and I are far from perfect, we certainly don't fall in to the
steamed chicken and broccoli fitness profile. Our members know this and feel comfortable talking to us about their struggles.
That helps to ease anxiety around our nutrition plan or getting started. However, I have spoken to members who have done exactly the same as me prior to starting bootcamp. They put weight on because they were nervous about joining a new group to lose weight and sought comfort at the bottom of a packet of Pringles.
We can help you
deal with your inner demons and get control of your eating habits, whether it be for weight loss or general health. Fran has recorded a video today about the fact that her nutrition plan has little affect on her waist line, you can view it here -
Fran Video.
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